I made a great, big, personal discovery last night. I have been contemplating why I was feeling so...not sure what is the correct word to use, but maybe 'displaced' describes it best. That is how I feel, displaced.
I am still getting used to being here. Actually, I am used to being here in Paraguay, what I am not used to, is NOT being in Venezuela which is not the same thing at all.
I love the people here, I love my house, I enjoy the culture, I love the ministries we are beginning and find it all exciting and challenging, but, the question in the back of my mind at many times is, "HOW DID I END UP IN PARAGUAY???"
It can be perplexing trying to figure out the way things are done here because it seems like I should know. For instance, every time I answer the phone, I get it wrong. I say 'alo' and the line remains quiet until I remember to say 'hola' with an accent on the last syllable which seems wrong to me.
I wear a chicken coop instead of a skirt. (pollera instead of falda)
Saying 'Adios' when passing someone on the street, seems to mean "Hello, I see you but do not have time for a chat".
And then the whole, 'chevere' and 'Na'guara' bit.
After our trip to Argentina, I still had some coins in my purse and with out realizing it, I tried to pay with them here. I keep thinking of money as 'Bolivares' rather than 'Guaranis'.
Can't tell you the Paraguayan name of half the fruits and vegetables or cuts of meat. I can tell you the Venezuelan word.
Stand at the door and clap! No knocking or banging the rejas like in Venezuela.
People mention a town or place and I do not know where it is. Or local politics and politicians, I haven't a clue who or what it is.
It is also very odd for me to be in a country with so many white people. There are many Europeans and people of European descent here. It just feels odd to not be different. I am used to being different and here I fit in much better, but find it uncomfortable. Which seems a strange reaction to me, lol!
Have you ever seen an old dog turning around and around in the same spot? Making his bed comfortable before he lies down? That's what I feel like!
The adventure of new discoveries is fun! Just not always comfortable, you know ? I'm working on it. Just like that old dog, a few more turns to smooth out the bumps and lumps, and I'll be all settled.